
Bright blue, cloudless calm days. Small birds hopping from tree branch to tree branch, singing their songs. Delicate flowers hiding under large broad leaves and barely swaying branches with fluttering leaves. A season matures, the signs outside pointing to fast-approaching hot summer days. Green is everywhere. At least I think; I imagine.
I imagine bright blue, cloudless calm days while I take a moment to distract myself from a mountain of monotonous tasks demanding my immediate attention. I think about small birds hopping from tree branch to tree branch, singing their songs, while I listen to the chatter of a long-trusted advisor explaining the financial report in my hands. I wonder about delicate flowers hiding under large, broad leaves and barely swaying branches with fluttering leaves when I finally take a moment to stop and look through a window, only to find dark clouds plummeting to the ground in a cold, wet fury.
There is nothing in life – in the twenty-six years before now and in the moments which make up the present – that brings me more joy than the handwork, determination, and imagination that goes into starting a company. I find myself facing the most thrilling moments in my life as I stare straight into the biggest unknown I’ve seen yet. I trade sleep for planning. I trade meals with friends for meetings. I trade frivolous nights out for work and I love every second of it. But there are moments I find myself wanting to surround myself with green – calm, worry-free, taskless green.

I scoop a small spoonful of earl grey tea into a small square of cheesecloth, carefully folding up the corners and tying the extra bits into a knot. The clank of a heavy tea kettle rings from the stovetop; I wait for the familiar whistle. Somehow I inevitably find myself back at my computer, staring at more analyses in a business plan. A screech calls out and takes me by surprise. Why did I put that on? Oh yes. Tea. Sweet, calming tea.
Near-boiling water pours over the cheesecloth into my favorite tea cup. I watch as the pristine liquid slowly melds into a beautiful rich, auburn. I rummage through the pantry looking for that nearly empty jar of gulf coast wild flower honey I know I left there. There it is. I struggle to coerce the last remaining drops into my cup. A silver spoon my grandmother’s grandmother once used finds its way into my hand; I stir the hot liquid and watch the swirling honey disappear. I slurp a sip, eager to taste the liquid without letting it sit on my tongue too long to burn it.
Suddenly I find myself outside, grasping the fresh earl grey with both hands as I lose myself in the green everywhere. It never really mattered what kind of tea I made – whether caffeine laden or caffeine free – it always calmed my mind and body. I wander around the garden admiring new and old flowers, listening to scurrying creatures and picking a fresh strawberry. Wait. When did this happen? Somehow in the blur that has been the past few weeks, I’ve neglected my fruiting strawberry plants. As I finish the last drops of my tea, I dust off a few dark red strawberries and bite in to the sweet, tart treats – holy shit these guys are so much better than what I find in the store. Then I make what could be the day’s most important decision.
I walk inside, clear my schedule, shut my computer, and begin collecting ingredients.


























